I'll miss the middle of the night moments when Sarah Claire thinks it's time to play, the talking over the shrieks and sounds that can't possibly come from someone this small, the pacing back and forth in the dark in a futile effort to lull her to sleep, and the inability to get anything around the house done because of this little blue eyed baby who wants more than anything else to be in my arms.
She's already saying "Momma." She is so, so close to crawling. She is recognizing certain words and her favorite people's faces and responding with emotion that just seems too big for her little self. She is also pulling hair with the strength of a body builder, and rapidly approaching her 6-month-on-earth mark. She is growing up, and I am trying to keep up, but just as I fully embrace one phase, we are on to the next.
I'm so proud of her for all of these milestones and these signs of healthy development, but there is a tiny, illogical part of me that just wants to keep her right where she is. But I keep thinking of the saying, "Change always comes bearing gifts," and I am reminded that I don't want to keep her from continuing to grow up- that is my prayer for her, that she will continue to grow and change and celebrate milestone after milestone and birthday after birthday; it's just that I know that with every new thing she learns to do, it's one less thing she needs me to do for her. And I just keep thinking... One day I'll wish more than anything else that I could have these moments back.
She's already saying "Momma." She is so, so close to crawling. She is recognizing certain words and her favorite people's faces and responding with emotion that just seems too big for her little self. She is also pulling hair with the strength of a body builder, and rapidly approaching her 6-month-on-earth mark. She is growing up, and I am trying to keep up, but just as I fully embrace one phase, we are on to the next.
I'm so proud of her for all of these milestones and these signs of healthy development, but there is a tiny, illogical part of me that just wants to keep her right where she is. But I keep thinking of the saying, "Change always comes bearing gifts," and I am reminded that I don't want to keep her from continuing to grow up- that is my prayer for her, that she will continue to grow and change and celebrate milestone after milestone and birthday after birthday; it's just that I know that with every new thing she learns to do, it's one less thing she needs me to do for her. And I just keep thinking... One day I'll wish more than anything else that I could have these moments back.
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